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soooo frustrated with EVERYTHING in general…..i HATE how everyone gets everything before i do…im just not ment to have anything and just suck at life.

Read more | Comments off | October 12th, 2009

With eyes so blind you cannot see that I wont ever leave

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WOW…i cant believe i was able to get back into this thing….it only took me about 5 tries lol. Holy shit it’s been a long time. For some reason with in the last couple days i’ve really felt like writting on here again but didnt know if i’d ever remember what email i used and all that crap. luckily i have the same password for just about everything..so if u hack me u’ll kno my password for 90% of my accounts…please dont do that.

So where to start…..

I’m still with the same guy i was writting about 2 years ago…goining to be 3 pretty soon =]….still in love for the greater part…we have our moments but who doesn’t. He’s been working nights this week and not seeing him like at all has really made me realize how much i do love him and how much i absolutly couldn’t live with out him EVER. And i can still remember our first kiss.

We FINALLY have our own place! have since october or november. Its nice. Still like to go home sometimes but am always glad to come back to my own place. We’re planning on buying a house…We’re living in brewer right now and are looking for a house up here for awhile…hopefuly eventually moving back home at some point…

On top of getting a house the boy is getting a truck…not new but good enough…

Finally figured out what to do with my life…im going to cosmetology school as planned…hopefully graduating this winter…going to Bernards NOT pierres aka Empire now shit hole….

ALSO we’ve had a baby…a girl named Rikki. she’s almost 13 months. Time really goes by so fast when it comes to watching ur kid growing up…it just doesn’t seem like she can be that old already.

 

Well that pretty much sums up my life since the last time i think…my life really isnt that exciting sadly =[ sometimes i miss how things used to be…hanging with the boy getting drunk good times…oh well we all have to grow up sometime…

I spose i’m off to put rik in bed, take a shower and go to bed, hopefully sleep before midnight. Tonight is the last night the boy works nights so i’ll be able to sleep normal again after tonight. One more day of school for the week then is funtime! Fair time this weekend im soooo excited..it’s the one thing i look forward to all year. gotta get my french fries, clams and funnel cake and i’ll be happy. Not sure if we’re gonna take Rik at all…maybe just for a little bit to check out the animals she’d prob like that but not sure…maybe wait til next year.

Now that i know how to get back here i’ll try and post more…although my life as a mentioned isn’t very exciting…

Read more | Comments off | September 4th, 2009

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Finally got my ass together and have an interview with Pierre’s on wendesday. hopefully it goes well…and hopefully i’ll actually continue to be interested in cause idk wat else to do…I think we’ll be moving soon…gotta make some phonecalls and look at some places…it will deff make things alot easier…i just wish i could be completly confident with desicions i make and wouldnt second guess myself all the time…hopefully things will just work out and finally start coming together…

i miss my bestfriend

Read more | Comments (2) | April 24th, 2008

swing life away

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our life is finally beginning =]

Read more | Comments (2) | March 25th, 2008

I just want to live

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i think i finally have a game plan.

Read more | Comments (2) | January 24th, 2008

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I may have possibly made a HUUUUGE mistake……

Read more | Comments (3) | November 12th, 2007

HAHA FUNNY FUNNY

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Three men are sitting around a camp fire, a Texan, a Masshole, and a Mainer. The Texan pulls out a bottle of Whiskey, takes a couple chugs then throw it into the air and shoots it with a gun. “What’d you do that for?” asked the Masshole. “Cause in Texas Whiskey is cheap and there’s plenty of it” replied the Texan. A few minutes later the Masshole pulled out a bottle of Champainge. He took a couple chugs and then threw it into the air and shot it with the gun. “Why’d you do that?” asked the Mainer. “Well in Massachusettes Champainge is really cheap and there’s plenty of it.” replied the Masshole. A little while later the Mainer pulled out a bottle of Budweiser, chugged the whole thing down, put the bottle back in his pocket, and then shot the Masshole. “What the hell did you do that for?!”asked the Texan. “Well, you see in Maine the bottles are returnable and we have plenty of Massholes.” replied the Mainer.

 

 

:-D

Read more | Comments (1) | September 8th, 2007

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sometimes i just feel so left behind…

Read more | Comments (1) | September 5th, 2007

You are the one you’ll never be alone again

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so people from New Jersey must just be born with hate and bitchy assholeness in their blood cause they all seem to be pretty god damn rude…It’s not my fault u like in a shit hole state that no one likes…


Also all you fuckers that come up here and make fun of the way we talk….you know what to us you talk just as fucking funny and numb so dick off….



On other notes….i’m totally stressed out cause the job im at now is ending fairly soon and i dont know what the fuck i’ma do after this one and im like aahhh uuuuuber stressed out about it and i dont know what to do with my life and it just seems that nothing is really going the way i planned it….like the boy and i are sposed to have our own place and that was the plan but that hasnt happened and i dont see it happening anytime soon….it sucks cause i want us to have our own place….i wanna be able to just like sit and veg out on the couch and not have to listen to other ppl and be able to watch what i want to watch on the tv and have my own cubords with my own food in them that no one else is gonna eat…and ughhh…i highly doubt it will happen anytime soon….


So do you ever just sit there and then start thinking about your boyfriends ex girlfriends and such and just get really kinda depressy and jealous because u wish that you coulda been with him the times he was with other ppl…but then u think about how you have him now and are never gonna let him go…and u have the rest of your life to make up for the time u werent with him…and you know that you can make him happier than he’s ever been with any other girl…atleast you hope all this…with all your heart…cause you dont want to think of a day when you’ll never be able to see him smile and look at you and know that he loves you and only you…cause you love him and only him…and you know that that will never change…



Read more | Comments (2) | August 29th, 2007

Except the state would be broke without your sweet ass money..

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Just because ur not from maine and are in maine it doesn’t mean that ur better than all the ppl from maine..it’s not like we’re just here to serve ur rich asses that can afford to take the summer off and vacation somewhere and drive around in your fancy car that probably costs more than some ppls houses…DON’T BE ASSHOLES!!! cause if your an asshole to me and all bitchy then captain i’ma be assholey and bitchy right back…as are 90% if the people you will run into that are from maine….FUCKING STRAPHANGERS!!! 



Read more | Comments (1) | August 17th, 2007

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